I haven’t been writing on my blog over the past 3 weeks, because I have been indisposed with back pain. I believe I have mentioned it somewhere in a previous post, but for convenience sake I will mention it again here. I have an exceptional back that, most of the time, takes me to great heights and far distances. Occasionally however, it gets a bit out of whack and causes me pain and dizziness. This is nothing new to me as my back and I have been on quite a long journey together. As I age though it reminds me from time to time, that it too is tired and cannot perform as it use to. 3 weeks ago it did just that, but because I didn’t listen to the little nudges of discomfort, I got slammed with debilitating pain, total posterior muscular seizures and dizziness whenever I moved my head or laid flat.
For 13 years I have cursed my house, saying that I feel like I live in a shoe box (my house is tiny compared to the victorian farmhouse that I use to live in), but 3 weeks ago, I became very grateful for the narrow hallway and small rooms, because it meant that I could touch the walls for balance as I navigated my way from the bedroom, to bathroom to living room.
My heating pad and hot water bottle got a workout, as did every single one of my ice packs. After 7 days of doing nothing but walking back and forth to the bathroom and watching endless hours of tv, I had had enough. I have no idea how people can sit around all day doing nothing, it drives me batty!
So somewhere around the end of the first week, I forced myself to go into the kitchen and prepare small meals. It took me twice as long as normal and the tiny 4’ (unwalled) area between my work surface and the sink seemed like 20’, but I prevailed.
The second week was much better than the first week as I could do much as I pleased without help or support, but the dizziness persisted so I had to take it slow. This past week I felt really good with almost no dizziness at all so yesterday I spent 7 hours in the kitchen cooking, baking and canning, just to find out around 5:00 last evening that something in my life has got to change, because my back simply does not work as it use to.
Throughout the last two weeks I have managed to get all of my Crossroads blocks finished though. I averaged 2 a day, but some days it was all I could do to get 1 done.
Sewing doesn’t bother me too much as I tend to go from the cutting area, to the machine, to the ironing board so I am moving every few minutes which never gives my back a chance to seize up. Hand quilting however is a major problem for me. In fact it was the 2 days of hand quilting that triggered the whole back episode. I simply cannot sit for more than a hour at a time, and I cannot sit with my arms out away from my body, which hand quilting requires. Many people think that when you have a “bad” back, that you have to sit all the time. That is positively not true, in fact the opposite is true. Sitting makes it worse. When you have spinal issues movement and strength is 100% the answer. The stronger your back is the less pain you will have, even with ruptured discs.
All of this structural instability this past month has lead me to the conclusion that my life has to change. When I started the Created by Bella journey early this year, I wanted to share my knowledge and inspiration with others. Regretfully though, being physically inactive on a daily basis has caused deterioration of my muscular strength and therefore deterioration of the supportive strength of my spine. I don’t want to close down the Created by Bella site, but I am going to post less often. I try to post once a week, but if I don’t please know it is because I am working on something and I don’t have anything to share yet.
Thanks for sharing my journey with me,