The past two months have been really rough. All the doctors that I have seen agree that I have a severe neurological disorder and one physician believes that it might be MS. With this in mind, I have nurtured my body with the most nutritious foods I could get my hands on, drank between 80 and 100 ounces of filtered water each day, exercised for a few minutes each day and took lots of detoxifying baths. Gradually my body is recovering, slowly but surely.
Being ill with a debilitating disease does a lot to your body, but perhaps more to your mind. I had lots of time to reflect on what I am doing with my life. Many times I made up my mind to close my blog and give up on sewing all together. After all, there is so much more to life that confining oneself in a sewing room day in and day out. A few glances at my sewing room during random times of the day, made me feel overwhelmed and uninspired. Then one day it occurred to me that instead of producing more items, perhaps I should be making only things that reflect who I am, things that I really love. Much of what I had in my room was not reflective of who I am or who I desire to be: It had to go.
It took me a few weeks before I felt strong enough to conquer such a task, but finally the day came. Yesterday I tackled the huge job and I am glad I did, I feel so much lighter.
This is my sewing room a few minutes after I started:
I threw out all kinds of stuff unfinished projects, quilt designs, and all my precut squares.
I know it sounds crazy, but I had an overwhelming need to get rid of it all. The bag had to weigh at least 15 lbs by the time I was finished.
The room now looks like this, and I have no regrets. In fact I actually feel ready to start my next project.
Sometimes we really need to take a step back and reassess our lives. Change can feel really uncomfortable, but often times it is necessary to do in order to grow.